I know what you’re thinking, “Makeup free weekend? Yeah? What’s the big deal?!” Well to ME it’s a big deal. My make up is my comfort blanket. My mask. I just don’t have the confidence to go out in public and let people see me as me.
All sorts of thoughts run through my head. “I bet he thinks I’m ugly”. “Is that lady looking at my dark circles?” “My eyes are too small and round”.
So I challenged myself to not wear it for the weekend.
Day 1- Saturday 15th October.
THIS. IS. ME. I actually feel a bit scared (I don’t know if scared is the word I’m looking for, but you get what I mean) to show my natural face. No mascara to open up my eyes, no foundation to cover any marks, no concealer to hide my dark circles. Just me.
On Saturday I offered to help my future sister in law out with looking after her kids while they moved house. So I drove there thinking “What if I stop at a red light and someone looks into the car and thinks “oh my gosh!!”. Next thought was “When I get to her house, what will she think of me as she probably hasn’t seen me with no make up on!”
I think my problem is I don’t like to be judged. People are used to seeing me a certain way and when they don’t, they’ll be shocked.
So later that day we had a trial of a French Bulldog as we’re thinking of getting one in the future. When the owner came round to drop him off, what would he think of my naked face!? I know you’re probably thinking “Surely she’s making this up?” I kid you not, I was thinking that. Obviously the man couldn’t give two shits about how I looked as he never met me before. So I just acted like nothing was wrong and chatted and smiled away with him.
Day 2- Sunday 16th.
Another make up free selfie. This day I was slightly more comfortable, still a bit un easy though. I drove my sister in law’s children back after having a little sleepover and thought, “Oh no, what will _______ think of my naked face!?” (I mean her husband) He has never seen me like this before and will probably think “Coorrr she’s ugly without make up!”
I then drove back home and waited until my boyfriend came back from work. We then went out shopping. For some reason I was a lot more relaxed about not having anything on. You could say I had finally felt comfortable in my own skin. It was almost like someone switched something in my head for me not to care as I browsed the aisles.
I really think this whole experiment has been a learning curve for me to love myself for who I am. I shouldn’t be ashamed that I have small round eyes or dark circles, or uneven skin. I think far too many people are striving for the perfect look when all along people actually prefer to see a natural beauty.
So I think I’m going to have my make up free weekends from now on. That way when I DO put it on, I feel special and pretty 🙂 It also gave my skin a chance to BREATHE!
If you’re feeling like me, give it a go. It doesn’t have to be 2 days, you could start with one and see how you feel.
Thank you for reading.